Why why why
Why am i not myself usual jovial self… Could be because i am down with flu and waiting for someone for nothing for a super long time is a bore! But… Haiz… cant seem to be my open usual self that make a lot of noise… I am not me nowadays, especially in front of ’i know who’
I need to get ‘myself’ back!!!
More Dance Videos
Few videos i would like to share from what i saw in youtube~
Saw this vid at Jinwen’s blog. Woah, never knew hiphop can show so much ‘feeling’. Shane Sparks did it again! One word, DOPE!
A comtemp piece! Check out danny’s leaps and the part where he spins from the ground and come up doing a grand jette. Superb la!
Dance is an expression of the music, the soul and if possible, to show what it is to be human, which is to feel good to be alive~ (thats my take on life and dance!)
Inspirational and Encouraging
Today i sure did a lot of posts. And i really felt my spirits and lifeforce are lifted today, maybe because i really put in my heart in my daimoku and having a great time today. Just came back from a dialogue session with Nitin Upadhye, a SGI-India member and a photographer and film maker by profession. Meng Har organised an informal dialogue session with Nitin for all the Angsana photographers. Very inspirational and i am very encouraged by his words. You can see how intense his eyes are, a deep sincerity in his words when he was sharing how he started out on taking up faith and how he took up photography.
I will share with you how he took up photography and faith another time once the confirmed details are out. But faith in the gohonzon has truly awakened him to his mission in life, which is for to bring happiness and do kosen-rufu with his works. Thats where he started out do documentry photography and documentry filming. He is currently doing a documentry film on the children in Kasmir, who suffer from the lack of education, food, etc. Faced with so many obstacles, he was able to overcome every single one of them. At one point, he was nearly killed by the terrorist in Kasmir, but avoided death. He said that he read a guidance from sensei saying :
‘those who have realised their mission cant die as long as they have yet to achieve their mission’
And he kept on emphasising on doing everything with your heart. If nothing comes from your heart and you only do it from technical terms, you will never achieve what you want. Be serious and focus on what you want to achieve and reach your purpose, know what is the purpose and be one with purpose to achieve your goal. Everything we do must link back to kosen-rufu and always bring yourself back to the prime point of your faith.
When he was sharing just now, i could see the intensity of his eyes, it explains how focused he is during that sharing session. And when he looks at you, you feel that his eyes something to tell.
Lets put religion aside and talk about what we can learn from this person, and i say that would be how to be a person that can contribute something good back to the society. Be it doing photography, dance, work etc. What good can you truly bring to the society and to the people. And as a person, how much do you want to achieve something, how far are you going to go. Are you always focusing and what you want to achieve at the end of the day. Bottomline, is a life philosophy on being a human and how can one achieve happiness and peace with oneself and with the world. Everyone has different religion, but all have a common point, that is to bring happiness to oneself and to others.
But then again, is everyone having this happiness and peace with yourself with the religion you are in ? Think about it.
Fireworks Celebrations
Back from dance practice, ok more of the happy stuffs. Went for the fireworks celebration on 17th and 18th Aug. On 17th went wif Jinjie and his friend Raymond (A very nice guy!) then on 18th went with Jinjie, Mei An and her friend Ying Jie (who is from TPSD also). Both days were good, but i on the second day is much much more crowded. But luckily we did not have much problem finding a parking lot on both days. Jinjie took leave on the 17th and i whack my time off on the afternoon (trying my luck since on that day they dun really need controllers around wahaha) and it worked! Heh… ‘Uncle’ did not say anything although i heard from Ah Wong that Botak fought for our timeoff (since worked until 8plus in the night for him, he totally appreciate our help). THANKS ENCIK! Then when we’re there at marina boulavard, Jinjie found out that his Camera was damaged~ Something went wrong with the shutter module. He damn sad la, and all the photos he shot all had a black streak across the image. As what he always says, ”SAD!” (I read in forums saying that is quite a common problem for Canon 1D Mark II users, the shutter modules always have a problem when it hits 20k plus) Anyways, i’ll let the pictures do the talking ya~
17th August Fireworks Celebrations (By Spain, titled Spanish Moon)
18th August Fireworks Celebrations (By China, titled 中华)
Yep thats all for the fireworks. I prefered spain’s rather then china’s fireworks. Spain has more high fireworks, while china has quite a lot of low level fireworks. Cant shoot anything with soooo many heads infront of me. Oh below are some candids/street shots while we’re waiting the crowd to clear at the lift at one raffles quay.
Taken after the fireworks, i forgot to turn my AF back on, took 4 pics then finally got a usable group pic. Oops…
Took a candid of Mei An hehs.. But damn, focused on the wrong thing la. Suppose to focus her but i tink i point at the wrong direction. Zzz..
Something i did for fun during my leave last monday. Hehz… but damn fake though. hahaha.. Oh well..
What the…
What the hell is wrong with me, i am kinda feeling down this few days, many things have been going through my mind, the feeling of being ‘alone’ came back to me again. What a time to come back. ‘HI’ my dear lonliness welcome back. I miss my friends, and i miss hanging out with my poly gang. Can someone build a time machine for me?
And sometimes, i feel a sudden negativity in myself on all the things i do, especially in dance. Guess i have been slackin for too long and now i need to get my ass back up one more time! There were even at times i asked myself whether can i really go for lasalle to get my Dip in dance. I start to doubt myself and my own ability. Argh, need to snap myself out of such situations! *WAKE UP MELVIN!*
And Just when you thought you are starting to like a place, you have to leave already and can never go back there ever again. Human, always have such last minute ‘emotions’, sucks right.
This post is kinda random, i just need to type it all out and let it out. I’ve been bottling up for quite sometime now. So i just need a place to let it out a little. Haiz, sometimes things are not meant to be, but at least try to keep as friends or even buddies! Hopefully!
