Last day @ work!
Weeee!!! Its my final day in this work place. Finally a break coming! Time sure fly like body business. I would be so looking forward to have my short 3 weeks break before my reservist starts at the end of this month. Im bored in office now. How i wish i can just go now =D
This is for you…
I very much liked this song, very meaningful and touching. Mariah Carey’s Bye bye, dedicated and written for her late father. I can totally relate myself into this song. This is for you mommy =)
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandmothers
Lift your head to the sky ‘cause we will never say bye
As a child there were them times
I didn’t get it but you kept me in line
I didn’t know why you didn’t show up sometimes
On sunday mornings and I missed you
But when we talked too
All them grown full things
Separation brings
You never let me know it
You never let it show because
You loved me and obviously
There’s so much more left to say
If you were with me today face to face
Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“I wish I could find a way try not to cry”
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I’ll give the whole world to see your face
And I’m bragging right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(Bye Bye 3x)
Bye bye
And you never got the chance to see how good I’ve done
And you never got to see me back at number one
I wish that you were here to celebrate together
I wish that we could spend the holidays together
I remember when you used to tuck me in at night
With the Teddy Bear you gave to me that I held so tight
I thought you were so strong
That you can make it through whatever
It’s so hard to accept the fact you’re gone forever
Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“I wish I could find a way try not to cry”
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And I’m bragging right next to you (?)
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye
(bye bye bye bye bye bye 3x)
Bye bye
This is for my peoples who just lost somebody
Your best friend, your baby, your man, or your lady
Put your hand way up high
We will never say bye (no, no, no)
Mamas, daddies, sisters, brothers, friends and cousins
This is for my peoples who lost their grandfather
Lift your head to the sky ‘cause we will never say bye
Chorus
I never knew I could hurt like this
And everyday life goes on like
“I wish I could talk to you for awhile”
“I wish I could find a way try not to cry”
As time goes by
And soon as you reach a better place
Still I’ll give the world to see your face
And I’m bragging right next to you
It feels like you gone too soon
The hardest thing to do is say bye bye
i felt that she came back
On sunday morning, around 2am, when i was about to fall into deep, i felt mom came back. I sleeping on my left side, and i heard my mom’s voice telling me that i must take care of my dad. And i replied without thinking, most probably it was from my heart that i told her, ‘mommy i miss you’. But there wasn’t any reply. Then i wanted to get up from my bed but i wasn’t able to. I felt something was stopping me from getting up. But i did not felt any fear nor was i scared during the incident. All i could do was to open my eyes a little bit to have a glimpse of whats going on. I did not see any traces of mommy, all i could hear was the footsteps from my room walking towards the living room. And then i heard someone sitting, touching the sofa and i heard the sofa chair went up to the ‘bed’ position. And after that i snapped back and quickly jumped out of my bed to check on the living room. But nothing was there. I sansho-ed and said that ‘mommy i definitely will take care of dad, this i promise you.’ It was an interesting feeling. I could not describe in words. But deep in my heart i knew it was her, she came back once again to remind me of her one and only wish. It was a great impact on me, until now i still cant shake away that feeling. I was telling dear that i that very same night as i was just doing nothing and a crazy idea i thought of, hopefully she can stay longer then can chit chat more =D Like hows shes feeling, does she look like her more beautiful self before she became very sick etc. But one thing is for sure, she can walk now! Or even float =P
Miss you a lot mom! But i will definitely keep my promise to you and also do my very best in my own life! Love You! =)
Mind and Body~
Yesterday was a really something i haven seen for quite sometime. The warm smile that mom always have. She only smiled when dad came. Before that, something bad happened yesterday, it literally thrown the family into turmoil, especially mom, she was totally saddened and heart broken. It was heart wrenching for me to look her suffer even more when her condition aint really good. After that incident, she cant eat, cant drink, cant sleep. Her health went downhill. But it was after having a good family talk with dad, kinda woke his mind up, gave mom the smile and happiness, mom suddenly can drink, can eat a little. Its like a totally 360 degree change. In such a short while, she did not complain of pain or anything.
Well everyone, as you can see, our mind do play a VERY BIG part in how our body and environment revolves. If you are very negative, your body starts to become weak, and everything around your environment seems like its going against you. If you are totally positive, your body will be stronger or even much better then you thought it was, and the environment goes with how you want it. I was really amazed to see how things turn out yesterday night at the hospital, it was like showing how the relationship is between the mind and body.
Well everyone, i know for some of you, it is hard to comprehand and understand, on how can our mind be so powerful and do so much. I personally, for quite a few times, i have experience it before, how our mind can play a very big part in how we perseive things. For example, if i were to have bad mood or bad day, nothing seems to go right, even going for dance classes, i cant seem to get the steps right or cant even catch up at times. But if positive, everything seems to go right, dance classes became great and i seem to be able to do well, something even better then i thought. SO, if you tell yourself, you can, you want, and all the positive stuffs, you’ll be surprised on how things would turn out! =) TRUST ME, GUARENTEE PLUS CHOP AR! =D
Although in my heart i know mom’s not gonna stay in this world for long, i still sincerely pray that will live out the best days she can ever get and she will live for as long as she can. Finally she’ll be comin home soon! She needs to get out of that all so low life condition ward, staying in a hospital for too long can really make you super sick! Bleahx!
Birthday Surprise!
Tis years birthday surprise is kinda scary experience xD Kuku Van went to make herself sound like shes crying like a baby on the fone, telling me that shes lost in RP and dunno where she is, and her lines got cut. I was like huh?!?!?! Then where you want me to find? So at first i was kinda sceptical on searching for her cos since i dunno where she is, and i believe she has money to take a cab home, she should be able to take care of herself although im still worried. And i was asked by the long one to go get some drinks from 7-11 cos he did not bring cash. And went i went back, pop out van and xinxin with a bday cake. Wah i tell you, i was very very surprised, relieved but a lil angry inside, cos i was thinking to myself what if anything happen to her etc. Yep, but i was really touched to see peeps rushing down from practice, from their own outing just to come celebrate with me. Love ya ma hommies!
Session was great too, manage to choreo 8 eights of Alright. Its feels great doing up this routine, it feels to bouncy, groovy and happy too! xD This is one of the routines that im really satisfied with! Haha! Might be using this for Sept’s GM, maybe maybe not, will see how things goes.
Once again, THANKEW PPLE FOR MAKING THIS YEAR’S BDAY ANOTHER MEMORABLE ONE! THANKEW THANKEW THANKEW! =)
