Choices…
Watched a movie in HBO yesterday night. Titled Life Support, a story inspiried by a black HIV positive woman in US named Ana (as in the film), who goes around with luggage bag of condoms and going around to pass to people to encourage safe sex and educating people about HIV. It shows how a human spirit can really do wonders, for when you faced with an incurable sickness, do you fight for your and live it to the fullest or you will just wait for time to come and take it as a death sentance.
This woman shown in the film crippled as the virus has invaded her left leg and its causing numbness and pain, which kinda remind me of my mom when she was going thru chemotherapy. So last night was kinda emotional from me, looking how the lady in the film, walking from place to place just to fulfill her promise to her daugther. Like mom, there were times that she insist that she goes to the treatment even when she knows her legs are quite numb, cos she felt that she will be a burden to the family if everytime we have to accompany to the hospital. It was only when she started to lose strength on her legs that she spilled out that she was a burden to the family. Thinking of it still brings back sad memories. How time has passed so fast and i am still very much miss her. So yup, life does have its choices even at times when you feel cornered, even Helen Keller, the lady who was a blind, mute, and deaf when she was 2. Was still able to live a life full of knowledge and positivity and bringing hope to people all around.
I very much like this quote by sensei about art. Here goes:
“Life is painful. It has thorns, like the stem of a rose. Culture and art are the roses that bloom on the stem. The flower is yourself, your humanity. Art is the liberation of the humanity inside yourself.”
Annoyed~
Gawd im freakin annoyed since early in the morning. Argh! Lets see the list of things im annoyed..
1.) Early in the morning woken up by bloody noisy crows! Their ‘literally’ talking to each other since 6am in the morning! Whats the commotion man!
2.) Went to Nafa’s Sports day at bottle tree park. Its a freakin waste of time, and best part is, everyone’s just there to watch pple play. And attendance must be taken. Wah Raoz~
3.) Took bus from bottle tree back to AMK, and theres this uncle standing right beside that treats me like im some invisible man. Read news paper must flip the pages so big until it hits me. Not once, but many many times cos hes like flippin the pages like every 30sec and the bus was pack. WTH!
4.) Went to NTUC and got some groceries, then went to queue at the ‘express’ lane and comes 1 aunty with big full basket of tissues, and for some apparently, she also tink im invisible, keep on knocking onto me even though theres plenty of space, WTH! Gave her a stare and best part is, she still can stare. WAH RAOZ, aunty! Watch where ya going!
5.) Walked to the 138 bus booth and infront of my was a bunch of young chaps going in the same direction as me, and then they saw their friends and ‘parked’ themselves at the entrance of the booth and started chatting like ‘hey u reached; oh i haven eaten anything; hows my new hair’, tis is literally wat the fuck la. I said excuse me 2 times, but to no avail, then i pushed my way in, and theres this indian girl in the clique kept on giving me the stare to me, basket! Got pissed and i stared back for awhile, giving them the you’re such a bimbo look, then i enjoyed my ipod. Then bus 130 came, and one the girl even walked pass me and checked is it 138. Like what the hell la, theres peeps infront that arent even moving, why u so kanchiong~ Still can ask their friends, “is tat 138? Why arent they movin?”
See, one morning and all these things happened say within 3 hours from the start of my day. And one more thing, nowadays i find a lot of young peeps are becoming more ignorant, and best part, they say its fine cos they dun see the need to know. GO LEARN TO BE MORE VIGILANT AND KNOW YOUR ROOTS AND STOP MAKING A FOOL OF YOURSELVES! Some times i really wonder what this young people will become in the future if they keep on having this kind of air head mindset. Saddening isnt it.
Its gonna be another HIP year!
Wah my blog machiam monthly update nia. Haa, aint got time to even sit infront of the com to relax man! Its all nothing but do work work work.. Anyways, year end’s gonna be another super duber exciting year! And its gonna end with a blast! I can see it! =DDDD
Lets see what events i’m looking for~
For Dance productions we have~
- Danzation by NRA – Dec 19-20 @ NP Convention Centre
- FB Production – Dec 12-13 @ NYP Auditorium
- Oschool Recital – Dec 8 @ SP Convention Centre
- SDZ (SP) Production – Nov 8 @ SP Convention Centre
For Competition we have~
- DanzWars – Nov 1 @ St James Powerhouse
- Code Edge – Oct 18 @ Zouk
- FTL 08 – Nov 15 @ SMU
For workshops/courses i am gonna take~
- Project Element – Oct 20 n 23 @ SWU (SMU)
- Meredith Kerr “Sevin” Hiphop Course – Oct 31 – Dec 5 @ SWU (SMU)
For choreography/events upcoming~
- Officializing of HRC
- Chingay 2009
- CNY Lighting Ceremony 2009
So you see, thats a lot going on! How to not sit down and take a rest man! Currently busy with oschool recital doing Gin and Ryan’s Item. Stress! Especially for Gin’s routine~ Argh, i need to work hard yo! Busy with chingay 2009, think this one gonna take a lot of my time very very soon~ Need to prepare for next year’s CNY Lightup event for SSA, so need to do up a routine for suited for CNY! Weeeeeee~
Alrighty! Im gonna train so hard until i do see big time improvements in myself in terms of dance and studies! Yea fight fight fight!
Just some thoughts, do you dance because you wanna perform, or do you dance because you just simply love dance. Lets talk abt this on the next post =)
update
Alrighty, yet again, haven been updating. Im just kinda lazy and not really in the mood to blog. Its just plain laziness. Anyways, our CFG performance has stated, and i still feel that we are still not there yet~ what i meant was not tight enough, not clean enough and the list goes on. Sounds like like im being ngiao but thats how things have to be, the hunger for perfection! Gonna be drilling during our coming sessions! Finally im having a short 2 weeks term break, though it is more of a study break cos once school’s back, there are a few tests coming up. But at least the presentations has stopped like finally.
Oh, just read a entry from mark’s blog and got to know Amy Winehouse took up chanting recently and sources say she is feeling the positivity and changes from chanting. I really hope that her karma will change and she will fully realize her potential in being an artist cos i really feel that she is one genius!
And looking at recent news on the happenings in thailand, i kinda feel that it is funny, because being a history student during my secondary school days, i learnt about the history of thailand. And it seems like history is repeating itself again in current thailand. It is said one will have to learn mistakes done in the past so that it will not happen in the future, but apparently, thats not the case for thailand. But i just hope things will turn out better for their country~
Recital practices coming up! So gonna be busy! AHHHH! I just hope that things will turn out ok cos quite a few of my CFG performances clashes with recital practices =/ Just hope things will turn out fine~ =)
Dance dance dance dance dance all the way! Oh and congrats to The Independant Crew to making into the 2nd runner up for Suntec Dance, you guys really did a great job yo!
Random Post and Updates
Its been almost a month since i last updated. Kinda busy with school and dance now. With CFG approaching nearer day by day, time’s running out and our routine is still not pieced up yet. So got to chiong chiong chiong!
Ok lets update school. I’m pretty much happy how is everything in school. It a different feeling then how i usually go school last time. I really look forward to classes and am quite attentive, which is quite unusual for me haha. Cos most of the time, i’ll doze off if i do not move from my sit after 30mins. Daimoku and prayers i guess =) But, i still cant really stand some of classmates, especially autocad class. Haiz.. Irritating. I might just tell them off to shut the hell up and bloody concentrate their work rather making a nuisance and making a fool of themselves. GAWD! Ok thats all for school.
Updates for dance! CFG routine almost up! But im quite worried for some of my crew mates as their still not very familiarised with the main routines, especially Yesterday. Not used to my style and not used to doing lyrical hiphop. But shall not give up and will make the show a big success! Still left with Jinwen’s routine and Ben’s popping routine and we’re done! Joining Oschool’s recital too, together with most of ma HRC hommies! Im thinking should i go for Jazz or not~ ARGH! Its now or never eh! LOL! Aiya later during the audition then say la! LOL! DIE! Weee weeee, recital’s gonna be more fun since more of peeps joining, and theres a total of 300++ sign ups lo! Wah crazy sia! Oschool’s gonna explode man! LOL…
And to end of~ I stumbled upon this vid about a 13y.o boy joining Britain’s Got Talent. He started singing since he was 6, and was always bullied cos kids do not like his singing and he was always laughed at and bullied. But the moment he sang, i was very much touched by how innocence and a sense of sadness in his singing. I nearly teared. Enjoy everyone~
